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My life sucks so incredibly bad

I can't help it i'm either mad or sad

I used to believe in wishing on stars

But now i know it's as real as people living on Mars

It seems like i'm in this world all alone

And i'm as dead to everyone as a stone

My best friend can't even talk to me about things

When i think bout that, it not only hurts, it stings

I think she found another best friend

Even though I thought we'd be best friends til the end

I hate the fact she can't talk to me

But she can just go to other people so easily

My parents are fightin all the time

My mom thinks loving my dad is a crime

My dad just tries way to hard

I've heard them scream and fight and now i've been scarred

Now is when you find out who your true friends are

From the ones that are trying to stay afar

I wish it could go back to how it used to be

When i didn't have to worry bout stupid shit and be free

I miss my best friend and what we had

But she has others and seems to be glad

No one will ever be able to take her place

She will always win the best friend race

She's always been there and had my back

But now all the sudden our friendship lacks

I hope i can figure out a way to fix it before it's too late

Before she decides i'm the one she wants to hate

I know i've taken our friendship for granted

But it's somethin i thought i'd always have, like it was planted

I know that i am at part to blame

I just wish we could go back and be the same

Now i have to find out what's on her mind

From other people or through a vine

I hate what it's come to and how it has been

But i'm hopin to change it and learn from this sin

My boy and I have finally ended

I wish it didn't happen but our relationship couldn't be mended

I still love him, with all of my heart

But it is better for us to be apart

I love him, but he loves another

And it's not his dad or his mother

She has screwed him over in the past

And i know if they get together they will not last

I wish he could see that and would just stay away

But it's not my place to tell him what to do or say

As long as he's happy i guess i can deal

Even if the love i have for him is real

I still care for him, and i hope he's happy

I just hope he doesn't get hurt, or treated crappy

He could do so much better than what she is

But there's nothin i can do to make him realize this

We'll still be friends no matter what he decides to do

Whether he wants to get with her, or someone new

I love my dad and he has tried so hard

But he should've given up my mom has up a guard

She won't give in and he should let her go

That way she'll find out what she really needs to know

We are her family and nothing can change that

Not even the people she meets in an internet chat

Maybe if she leaves things will become clear

And maybe she'll miss her husband, her love, her dear

Even if she decides that a divorce is for the better

I still may not talk to her, even if she writes me a letter

She's pushed me away through all of this crap

Hopefully she'll see that she just put herself in a trap

I'm gonna live with my dad, no matter what she tries

Nothin will change my mind, not even if she cries

She's torn my family completely apart

She should've know that this would happen from the start

She's hurt my brother, me and my dad

And obviously she can't see what she had

Sure my dad has made some mistakes

But we all have faults, troubles, and fakes

She hasn't been perfect her entire life

But my dad never thought of her not being his wife

I really hate this guy she talks to

I'm sure that he has encouraged her to what she wants to do

Which is to divorce from my dad, which is leaving us

My brother said he's goin with dad too, that's a plus

This guy doesn't even live close to here

He lives in Minnesota, which is just weird

She's probably never met the man

But she'll listen to him about givin my dad the can

I really wish someone would knock some sense into her

Then maybe her emotions wouldn't be quite as stirred

Then life maybe wouldn't be so bad

And then my family would still be me, my brother, mom, and dad

My best friend is driftin away

And my mom doesn't want to stay

I'll do everything i can to get my best friend back

Our friendship is something i need, and i right now it's something i lack

I hope that by now you can probably tell

That i hate my life, and it's a living hell

The people that are closest to me in my life

Are the ones that are causing all this pain and strife

This will all make me stronger once i figure it out

The only thing about that, is finding that route

Most of what's goin on is out of my hands

But i will do whatever i can

To change the things that suck in my life

Before i don't end up doin somethin stupid with a knife